Just a quick post to keep you all up to date with what may turn into a “Situation.” No, I am not referring to MTV’s Jersey Shore. I’m talking about my feet. They’ve been very (read: VERY) swollen the past few weeks. There’s also been some tingling and some discoloration on the tops of both feet. FF & Sis both said to call a doctor. Here’s the thing, when I get “kinda” sick, I have no problem going to the doctor & getting some antibiotics etc. When I think something might be SERIOUSLY wrong, I tend to put off going in as long as humanly possible. My diabetes probably could’ve been diagnosed at least 3 months earlier than it was if I wasn’t in denial about something being wrong. So here I sit with puffy, tingly feet and I’m scared shitless. FF & I had a short discussion on neuropathy this weekend and I won’t lie, I am scared out of my mind. If I’m having these symptoms only 3 years in what does the rest of my life bring? I plan on keeping ALL of my fingers, toes, hands, feet, legs & arms as long as I’m alive. Period. I will do WHATEVER it takes. I mean that. I will never touch another carb if it means keeping my body together. I know I’m overreacting but I’m scared…and this is what I do when I’m scared.
I talked to my one of my best friends today and she also mentioned calling the doctor. I explained that I was sure a lot of this was due to the combination of heat & my new running routine. Just talking about this though had me in tears. So I made the call. I called my lovely CDE & explained what was going on. She insisted I call my PCP immediately and call back to let her know the situation. She said I needed to be seen TODAY or at the latest, TOMORROW. The urgency in her voice has me even more petrified. I called my PCP office and they can fit me in tomorrow at 3:45. So I will go. And I will probably cry no matter what the outcome. I’m realizing now how terrified I’ve been since these symptoms showed up & I’m beating myself up for not doing anything about it sooner. So please, if it’s not too much, a few prayers my way would be appreciated. I’ll update tomorrow afternoon as soon as I know something. Thanks all. XOXO